Tuesday, 28 December 2010

Today

Today I saw the trees sway...I felt the breeze...and wondered ..will all this be felt after we die ???
I miss my mother sharing these simple joys... I miss her calls over the phone ..her daily enquiries of my health and well being...

Mummy where are you???

Today I could bear the pain and sit through the office...but when colleagues came and consoled..I could feel my heart pump and tears well up...

Today is yet another day...wishing like hell mummy comes soon!!!

Saturday, 25 December 2010

DAD...

My Dad is yet to reconcile...he is talking..he is wailing...and is hallucinating..
I am putting up a brave front...but when left alone ..I am also like Daddy !!!

Mummy where are you? Please advice us....please please..

SHRI MATAJI PLEASE FORGIVE US AND HELP US !!!

Friday, 24 December 2010

Amma....My Mummy

Mummy...Iam crying.
Mummy I am lost without you...
AMMAAAA...

I spoke to my mummy last on 9th Dec...and after a couple of hours..I am told she left all of us...
My father..the best dad I can ever imagine..lost his wife...we children , three of us..one elder bro, self and one younger sis..lost our mummy...the bestest sweetest dearest loveliest ammaaaaaa...

I do not understand God's way of doing things..although we need to let Him play..but isn't it unfair to play the game this way? All we want..Oh God,... is a peaceful farewell of our loved ones...do not treat humans like whatever other living beings you have created...we are prepared to go..but we need a kind of space, time to say our good byes in a pleasant way...whats the hurry God?????

Dear friends, I am a soldier. I see death and have been seeing very very close...be it in peace time soldiering or on the battlefields...I have seen guts coming out, heads blown off and yes I have been trigger happy as a leader fighting terrorists... I felt remorse when humans died...I cried and bereaved when close comrades died.

But the reality of death struck now when my mummy ....ammaaaaa be happy..do not worry please..now no more pains for you...yes , I will cry. Daddy, anna and arun will cry...that does'nt matter..you be with the Gods and guide us. Give us the strength to live and wait for our turn...

Mummy please make sure WE ALL ARE TOGETHER SOON !!!

LOVE U AMMA...